Sigh

I never thought that a divorce could be so hard. I use to see women who were going through a divorce and i would think well they must really want this or else it wouldnt be happening. My total mind set has changed now. When i hear of someone going through a divorce i think wow, they are really strong. Truth is, you make people think that you are strong when in reality you are screaming on the inside. No matter how mad you get at your spouse, you still love each other and it hurts to no that they dont want to be with you anymore. I thought we could work things out, i no we couldve, but you cant fix things on your own. It takes both people to make a marriage work. I feel like my whole world is upside at times, then other times i feel like im on top of the world again. Divorce is such a rollercoaster. If it has this kind of effect on me then I cant help but wonder what effect it has on the little one.

As i was sitting here writing this i remember the song "love me for me" and it makes me realize that everything will be ok. I deserve someone who loves me for me and not the person that they wanted me to be. When you are at the bottom of life you can only go up from here :)