A Bad Day

Today has been one of those days where you just want to go in a dark room and sleep until it is over. I have tried to start living to where I dont let a bad day bring me down because you never no when you go to sleep at night if that will be the last day of your life. But sometimes it is so damn hard. So many things have been going on inside of my head lately. I am sure you have all met one of those women who think that they can do everything. They think that they can be the perfect mother, the perfect wife, the perfect employee, and keep the perfect house and cook the perfect dinners well I am one of them. It is so exhausting trying to make everything perfect all the time and more times than not nobody even notices it so then you feel like it is just all a waste. It is so embarrassing to share this with people because everyone in my family thinks that if things are left unsaid then they will disappear. I dont have that one girlfriend who I can run and talk to about everything becuase I dont have any friends who are at the same point in their life that I am at in mine. I chose to get married and start a family over going off to school and partying all the time and I couldnt be happier with my decision but I just feel like a need a break sometimes. Then I realize that you cant take a break from life. I should be enjoying every minute I have with my little man but sometimes I notice that the only thing that I can think of is how am I going to lose the weight that I gained during my pregnanct or how am I going to get all the laundry done or the dishes need done and I have a paper to write for school. It is getting to the point to where if I am doing something for me then I feel guilty. I would love to no what a life without stress would be like.