Somewhere else

I have been thinking about what my next post was going to be and then KC wrote about her new location and it made me realize how bad that I want to move away. Once I am out of nursing school in less than 2 years I want Wayne, Mason, and I to move far away from here. It isnt going to happen but it doesnt hurt to dream  I guess. A lot of people ask me why I want to be so far away from family and well my answer is simple, sometimes family hurts you worse than anyone else. I love my family and I love waynes family and it actually would be harder for me to move away from his family than my own. I can count on one hand the number of family members of mine that I wouldnt want to leave. I think moving out of this town would do us such good. I could then raise my child the way that I want to and not the way that EVERYBODY tells me to. As long as we have each other there really isnt anyone else that we need.

I just want a fresh start and I want it to be far enough away to where people cant drive there in an hour. I dont need to be on a beach in Florida I would be ok on a mountain in Colorado. I want to be far enough away that I dont get pulled into the drama of my mother. Other than seeing my little brother I dont like going over there anyways but right now I live so close that I feel obligated to drive the hour to Connersville to see her. Is that bad? I mean who feels obligated to go see their mothter but honestly doesnt want to go?

Maybe one of these days we will move away, all I can do is keep my fingers crossed. Wayne is my best friend and if I have him and Mason I think we will be fine.

"When it hurts to look back, and your scared to look ahead, you can look beside you, and your best friend will be there."