Venting

I need to vent about some things and I figured that this was the best place to do it. I am so over those people who think that they can tell me how to raise my child. I am a good Mother and to those of you who dont think I am if I do recall I never asked for your opinion. I am so over those people who feel the need to tell me that everything that I am doing is wrong! Just because I am young does not mean that I dont no how to raise my child. I would never let anything bad happen to him and I would die for my child. So to those of you who can read this and are the ones who say that I am a bad mother then you need to take a look at yourself and if you are so darn perfect then maybe you should start having kids and see if you can do much better.

This is what love looks like

When I was younger people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up and I would answer " a mom". I have had some people who have said that any girl whose goal in life is to be a wife and mother doesnt really have any goals at all. Well to those of you who think that I want to let you no that you are wrong. Being a mother isnt meant for everyone but those of us who have always dreamed of it, it is the best job in the world.

There are so many emotions running through your body the first time you hold that precious little baby that no person on this earth can imagine unless they have been through it. I was sitting here watching cartoons with Mason tonight and he fell asleep while I was holding him and I just watched him sleep and kept thinking that it is amazing how this precious little being can control everything about me and not even realize it.

His little smile is something that can melt any persons heart when they look at him. I love it when I pick him up out of bed in the mornings and he stretches really big and makes those funny little faces. Everything about him is perfect and I cant wait to see what the rest of my life hold with him.                           This is what true love looks like

The Final Inspection

With the recent death of Officer Moore I have been thinking a lot about my husband and his job. I am very proud of him for the job that he does and I feel that he is good at it but that doesn't keep me from worrying about him. Everytime he walks out that door at night I cant help but think that it could be the last time that I see him. People are idiots and you never no what they are going to do. It happens every day, instead of maning up to the fact that you were speeding and pay the 150 or whatever dollar ticket, they think that it will make things better to just shot the officer. I dont understand how any person can take another persons life for that selfish reason. There is a poem that I love and I wanted to share it with all of you...

"The Final Inspection"     

The policeman stood and faced his God,
Which must always come to pass.
He hoped his shoes were shining.
Just as brightly as his brass.

"Step forward now, policeman.
How shall I deal with you? Have you always turned the other cheek?
To My church have you been true?"

The policeman squared his shoulders and said,
"No, Lord, I guess I ain't,
Because those of us who carry badges
can't always be a saint.

I've had to work most Sundays,
and at times my talk was rough,
and sometimes I've been violent,
Because the streets are awfully tough.

But I never took a penny,
That wasn't mine to keep....
Though I worked a lot of overtime
When the bills got just too steep.

And I never passed a cry for help,
Though at times I shook with fear.
And sometimes, God forgive me,
I've wept unmanly tears.

I know I don't deserve a place
Among the people here.
They never wanted me around
Except to calm their fear.

If you've a place for me here,
Lord, It needn't be so grand.
I never expected or had too much,
But if you don't.....I'll understand.

There was silence all around the throne
Where the saints had often trod.
As the policeman waited quietly,
For the judgment of his God.

"Step forward now, policeman,
You've borne your burdens well.
Come walk a beat on Heaven's streets,
You've done your time in hell."

This poem was read at Wayne's graduation for the police academy and ever since I have heard it I always think about it. I just wish that for once people would think about the effects that their actions are going to have.

~Love me for me~

I am new to the blogging world but it is something that I have been wanting to do for awhile. I love to write so I figuered that it would be somthing that I could do. I was trying to think of what I wanted to name my blog while I was driving to school yesterday. I was listening to K-Love and a song came on that was called ~Love Me by JJ Heller~ and as I listened to the song I was crying my eyes out. It is one of the most beautiful songs that I have ever heard. Here are the lyrics:

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He's the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, "Dear God won't you please...
Could you send someone here who will love me?"

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
'Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She's the woman whose husband has run away
She'll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would've stayed
And she says...

Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He's waiting to die as he sits all alone
He's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
"Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home"

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
"I know you've murdered and I know you've lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that I..."

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew

This song has such a powerful message. It doesnt matter where we are in life or where we will go but God will always love us for who we really are. When it seems like we cant get any lower there is always that greater being pulling us back up.

Look the song up and listen to it. If you let it I bet it can change your life :)